Rose I am sorry you are struggling with all that! Just know we are happy to have you stick around with is for a while, or for a long time. It really can be confusing, there is nothing clearcut about bipolar that is forsure, all over the map and individual.

Ask any questions you want, the bipolar forum is very welcoming like the rest of PC. Nice to see you again tho. I hope you can get the info you need to sort it all out and yourself well. I do beleive there is always a way to getting well, tricky to find it. Very worth it tho.