one of my best friends died over a year ago. I can not seem to get back to normal. Everytime i get stressed i shut down and push the people who love me the most away. I just lost a relationship of almost two years because of this. She refuses to try again if i do not get help since this is not the first time we have gone through this. I tryed counselling but it just did not work for me. I need a way to help myself and to show her that im trying to better myself any advice would be much appreciated. She was with me through the accident; she has seen sides of me i could never show anyone and i dont want to lose her too.