"So, I start a new job tomorrow, in a new town. It is the same job and responsibilities I had at the job I had to leave at home when I got sick. I know how to do it. I know I CAN do it. I have absolute confidence in my skills. So why am I desperately looking around for my Xanax bottle?"

I'm in exactly the same position as you. I just started a new job yesterday. I practically had to drag myself kicking and screaming to the office. It's the kind of work I've done for 6 years, so it's not that I'm feeling insecure about being able to do it. But there's something inside of me that's screaming "one day soon they'll find out what a fraud you are, that you can't really do this job well, and you'll be fired!"

I hate the idea of sitting in another office, but no one's buying my scripts or books, I haven't been able to come up with an idea for my own business (one that will support me), and unemployment doesn't pay enough. I'm TIRED of having to be an adult and do work I don't want to do, just because I have to support myself.

Where's that Xanax bottle?