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sigh, i hate it when i go to look up something (i.e. news or something that has happened that I am like- i never heard of this what is this (story or event)?).... well when I look at the years of these things occurred, some times i "metaphorically" slap my brain and say--
"well no wonder you don't remember beauflow-- you were in the drug life style and were not aware of anything besides getting high."

just guess a reminder today on how much more than i ever thought has been lost due to i was very arrogant, ignorant and just so lost..... and just dove into the life style.

i don't where else to post this, not even sure if anyone else really understands...
but it is just thoughts... not really sad sad about it but, it is sad.