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Originally Posted by beauflow
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sigh, i hate it when i go to look up something (i.e. news or something that has happened that I am like- i never heard of this what is this (story or event)?).... well when I look at the years of these things occurred, some times i "metaphorically" slap my brain and say--
"well no wonder you don't remember beauflow-- you were in the drug life style and were not aware of anything besides getting high."
just guess a reminder today on how much more than i ever thought has been lost due to i was very arrogant, ignorant and just so lost..... and just dove into the life style.
i don't where else to post this, not even sure if anyone else really understands...
but it is just thoughts... not really sad sad about it but, it is sad. |
beauflow it makes perfect sense to me. i guess the fact you're clean and sober will give you lots and lots of good memories.sometimes for me looking back doesn't help my state of mind. so try to move forward friend. it will help i believe.
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