I'm back on. It's monday! wow, I didn't mean for this to go the direction that it went.

I think that for me, I would absolutely love to stay on the meds, AND find that knowledge and strength that Anika, Dragon and Venus have found! Best of both worlds, ya know.

the meds really do help me. Relief is the word that I would use. but even then, it seems that a lot of effort has to go into it. I'm currently diving into physically healthy activities hoping that running again and stopping smoking will make the difference. I'll even meditate if that will help. Take Yoga classes, whatever it takes.

but I think that for a lot of us, and including me a lot of times, it seems so hopeless. like meds are the only thing that has a chance of helping us. I feel this way cuz I've been this way since being nine years old, and when I think back, it feels hopeless. it's only when I can let it go that I see some hope.

I can understand completely where R.B. is coming from. But I can also see that light at the end of the tunnel where others are coming from.

Lets try to show understanding for one another! We are all suffering from this. All we can do is try and listen and try to learn really.