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Originally Posted by Sannah
Are you at an alternative school now? I really wish that you could see your therapist as a partner and not as an adversary.
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Yes I'm at a new school. I've been here about three weeks.
And I don't even hate her. I despise her. Se has ruined my life more than it already is.
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Originally Posted by avlady
it is good you are here!!!!!!!!!!!this is where we can speak our thoughts, good or bad and not have anybody judge you as you probably figured out already or you wouldn't have posted. i don't know much about cutting, but all i can really say is keep alive there is so much to live for and you already have done some amazing things. no one has to be Superwoman or Superman . give youself some ME time alone or friend and talk about you goals, maybe you'll have others you never even thought of. i wish i could get in your head and erase your rape for you, but i cant so remember there is still time on you side as young as you are, and they will fade? well i wish you well, and keep working at yourself, you'll come out on the right side in shining colors!!!!
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I hope so. But I don't know when I will completely snap and just give up on life once and for all.
I spend my ME time on PC.
And I don't think the rape will ever fade. I have a memory loss disorder, which causes m to forget literally everything. Even my name in extreme cases. But one of the only things I can't forget, is being raped. I remember the exact words he said. I remember what I was thinking, what his faces looked like, I remember ever little detail. And when something reminds me of just one of those things, I just want to die. It's so painful to remember. I just want to kill myself so the memories will stop. But I am never strong enough to ever do. I just have to suffer through it. Cutting helps.
Tank you for believing in me though.