Yes I know what has caused it, well something in the last few days.

Since last weds I found out my bf had been cheating so had to deal with that and the girl making the claims, his lies, the truth, and explain to my kids that enough one gone.
In between this I have had my ex the person I truely love but also my old trigger, confessing his undying love for me, turn up at my door having a break down, telling me his depressed.
Oh god it goes on.
I'm trying to find my level head. But it keeps disappearing. Every day can be had enough as it is with BPD. But this is a real struggle.

Thank you for listen to me and your advice ((hugs))