Didn't last long

So I'm back self harming after not harming since November,
I've self harmed twice in the last few days, I've drunk every day apart from yesterday and Sunday which drinking started last weds, but I do like odd glass any way!!
Monday night if I held hd enough pills I prob would of tried tHe over dose,
I really want to feel that feeling tonight, and I'm fighting it.
That's the only reason I am posting is to distract myself.
I need to sleep before this gets to much, I need all my emotions to stop, and the thinking.

What has changed for you recently that has made you decide to SI? do you have any idea what has pushed you to not supress the urge to cut like you have for the last few months? despite what happened, i would like to commend you on not doing it for over three months! that is a great accomplishment that no action can take away from you.

Please keep yourself safe, NO ONE wants you to get hurt. if distracting yourself helps please do it.... this site is good for that : )

a techique that my therapist taught me to help deal with negative/overwhelming emotions was to take deep breaths and just feel the feeling and allow myself to do that. also to remember that it is OKAY to feel any feeling and to know that they will pass and even bad feelings are not going to last forever.

I hope this helps! and thanks for "listening" to me ramble : )

--Sam

Yes I know what has caused it, well something in the last few days.

Since last weds I found out my bf had been cheating so had to deal with that and the girl making the claims, his lies, the truth, and explain to my kids that enough one gone.
In between this I have had my ex the person I truely love but also my old trigger, confessing his undying love for me, turn up at my door having a break down, telling me his depressed.
Oh god it goes on.
I'm trying to find my level head. But it keeps disappearing. Every day can be had enough as it is with BPD. But this is a real struggle.

Thank you for listen to me and your advice ((hugs))