Absolutely spot on there NL - I am MAJORLY triggered, I think that's a great description, I don't often use that word but yeah all sorts of really heavy and intense stuff surfaced purely as a result of her words .

But do you really think she's speaking of hope and the future? I suppose you're right in that if she really felt stuck about helping me, she wouldn't be talking like that .

I guess I just see it as her being wishy washy and even in some ways retaliatory, why tell me how she's feeling at a loss, in an EMAIL!!!! that doesn't help me one little bit, and I even wonder if she said it deliberately as a means of getting back at me for criticizing the session. Why say it? I don't understand that, I really don't at all, despite all you guys helpful suggestions and interpretations