Oh dearheart, I can so relate. But please don't discount ALL medication just because the one didn't work. Not ALL meds do that to you. Most do not. I'm on Cymbalta, and it does NOT make me feel "numb" or like everything else is medicated. It just relieves the depression. It was the same with Prozac, but I had to stop taking that because I was on it so long that it quit working. That happens sometimes. Just ask your doctor if you can try something else that won't numb everything else. I'm sure he'll work with you.

I'm sorry too that your hubby isn't being supportive! That's important since we have to live with them. Have you talked to him about it? Or is he one of those who you just can't talk to? Evidently if all there is is blame, then he's not too great a conversationalist.

Is there a Depression Support Group where you live? Many cities have them, and perhaps there's one near you. You might check at your Hospital and see if they know of one in the city.

Would your insurance cover it if a doctor said that it was NECESSARY? What if they got prior authorization for it? Just wondering if perhaps the doctors office called and said it was necessary, that they might approve it. ????

Keep talking to us monkeygirl -- we'll be here. And chances are some of us have been thru or will understand what you're going thru. So don't hesitate to post, okay? Doesn't really matter the time of day -- usually someone is here. God bless and please take care. Hugs, Lee