I hate moments like this. I woke up today feeling sad, feeling really disconnected from, and worrying about, the inevitable loss of someone dear to me, and as the day has gone on I feel almost grief in my heart. Tears are rolling down my face and I have no one I can turn to.

I don't have many people in my life with whom I can be honest about how I am feeling, and besides all my friends and family are happy and because I am getting married soon, expect me to be happy. (Besides I would be ashamed to tell them about why I am feeling this way.)

My sadness has nothing to do with my relationship, and I am truly happy about my wedding and am really looking forward to it, but strange as it might seem there is room in my heart for exquisite happiness and mind-numbing sadness.

I don't want to talk to my other half about how I am feeling as there is nothing he can do and I don't want to upset him, besides he has been having to deal with this for the last couple of months or so, and it isn't fair to keep burdening him with it all.

Feel utterly alone as a result

Anyone else ever feel as if other people's expectations prevent them from being honest about how bad they are feeling?