If you can arrange it, you need to get in to see your psychiatrist as soon as possible. You need to be on medications to calm the hysteria and to make it possible for you to talk to him to get an opinion on how you should handle the symptoms you're having.

Unfortunately, you are placing yourself in a very precarious position by the irresponsible sexual behavior and you need to get that stopped once and for all. Your husband will not tolerate that, in my view, for very long, and he has rights in the marriage that are being abused, as you know. Legal action favors his position very much at this point.

Please see a psychiatrist right away and get help.

Good wishes in overcoming the problems very, very soon.