I am the "Queen" of stupid decisions! Financial, and emotional, and facing the results now as I ponder retirement. The only good part of this is that I've reached a point of peace. I'm emotionally secure and self-sufficient, no longer needing or striving for the approval of others. I accept the mistakes I made as a growing process...kind of like the velveteen rabbit with all its scars and bruises. It has made me a more compassionate person, and without such experiences, I'd probably still be self-focused. I know a lot of people my age, or near my age, who've never had to struggle, either emotionally or financially. They're fine people, but they lack empathy. They're secure in their little niche. They've always gotten what they wanted. I have always marveled at such people, since I lack the "gene" to manipulate people to satisfy my needs, LOL. I've always felt I should be the one who gives and gives.
And I have been that, to my detriment. But now I've found a balance, and I focus my compassion on thngs that are worthy.
Embrace yourself! and make the best of the experiences. Don't hold onto hurts or slights, insults. They only hurt you by the holding on!