making stupid decisions

yeah back then i made a lot of stupid decisions. i made a fool of myself at the grand canyon when my teacher yelled at me and everybody else looked at me. that a**hole. I am still angry with him to this day. speaking of which, his face is starting to pop up in my mind right now. if only i could grasp him would i be hurling my glue at him. Darn that monster! I hope you guys don't think i am being too offensive. i am just here to vent.
yeah i also deleted a bunch of my friends from a networking site and now i'm readding tehm i didn't trust them at first and felt like all the things, addictions, had to do with them. i thought for some reason that they might be dealing with the same things, but now i'm like nah, it can't be them. it's just all in my mind. my mind is playing tricks on me.

You're not alone in having your mind playing tricks on you. Many of us wouldn't be here if our minds were working without sometimes doing that. So, did someone do something to you to make the teacher notice and get after you when you were at the Grand Canyon? I'm not sure exactly what happened to make you so mad at that guy.

I have made many stupid decisions in life. The most recent one was in 2007 when I decided to move to a certain city without properly considering the pros and cons first. I was impulsive and it cost me a beautiful home I already had paid for and I am now back to renting a dinky little apartment.

Don't be too hard on yourself. We often do things impulsively then regret later.

when you're alone, you hope that the surge of panic does not lead you into situations that will make you uncomfortable, causing you to act on impulse instead of on logic.

I moved 2,600 miles from home away from two of my children. I felt I had to do it at the time but I regret it now.

are you still in touch with your kids?

Of course. They'll be visiting for Spring Break in a few weeks. They are both grown, (20 and 23), but I shouldn't have gone. I had very, very valid reasons; my impulsiveness there was such that I could have ended up in jail and that's why I moved, but I should have taken my chances and stayed.

how old were they then when you left them? is the first time for them to see you again?

I left about 6 months ago, and yes, it's the first time.

My sons loved the city I impulsively moved to. It was a city that had lots of opportunity IF you were bilingual with your original language being French. If you were originally English and fluently bilingual with french but did not have a french last name....good luck getting the career jobs. I was mostly english with only a smattering of french so I wasn't even bilingual. I Should have known I wouldn't go far without the french but I went there anyway and blew whatever savings we had with little career prospects. My sons enjoyed Ottawa though.

We had to move back to this tiny little place with no career paths to financially start over. One son is now moving to Texas in April and the other is trying to figure out what he wants to do. Hopefully, it involves getting out of here.

We have all made stupid moves. I finally learned that if a door closes, wait for the other to open,and to really learn when it closes. and wait,...

I am the "Queen" of stupid decisions! Financial, and emotional, and facing the results now as I ponder retirement. The only good part of this is that I've reached a point of peace. I'm emotionally secure and self-sufficient, no longer needing or striving for the approval of others. I accept the mistakes I made as a growing process...kind of like the velveteen rabbit with all its scars and bruises. It has made me a more compassionate person, and without such experiences, I'd probably still be self-focused. I know a lot of people my age, or near my age, who've never had to struggle, either emotionally or financially. They're fine people, but they lack empathy. They're secure in their little niche. They've always gotten what they wanted. I have always marveled at such people, since I lack the "gene" to manipulate people to satisfy my needs, LOL. I've always felt I should be the one who gives and gives.
And I have been that, to my detriment. But now I've found a balance, and I focus my compassion on thngs that are worthy.
Embrace yourself! and make the best of the experiences. Don't hold onto hurts or slights, insults. They only hurt you by the holding on!

Well, I guess if you get to be queen I have to be princess.