Welcome lemonada. I applaud your courage for voicing your struggles - an important step and one that will come in handy. I don't know what the healthcare system is like there but here it's either self-referral or GP-referred. So you might want to start by talking to your doctor. At the same time you can look into your local health authority and find out what services they offer and how to get into them. And be strong...it might take awhile, it could take awhile to find the right meds, etc etc, but in my experience it pays off. Good luck.