if you are here in New York, which is in the USA no choosing to be an alter is not part of DID nor psychotic..here that kind of behavior is called fantasy play...just like if someone chooses to pretend to be a mom when playing house, or choosing to be a knight in roll playing games.

if I had done something like that my therapist would not have thought I was nuts but she would have realized it was what she calls a fake out...someone pretending to be sick and would have questioned whether any other times that I switched into an alter might have been me faking it for attention, or other reasons. if I had done that my therapist would have been very angry that I had used my mental disorder like that... my therapist is a firm believer in things like being mentally or physically sick is not an excuse for bad behavior. She believes that one of the goals in therapy is to learn how to deal with problems without having to run away from those problems. that having alters alters happens because a person could not handle something and when the alters stop coming out that means the person is able to take on the duty and responsibility to deal with that problem their self.

if this was me I would be apologizing to my therapist for putting her in a position of witnessing me faking my disorder and work with her on the reasons why it happened and it would be hard work because my therapist would not accept the excuse of I did it because an alter didnt pop out.. I would have to look deeper than that to things like what was it about my sisters and my relationship that I felt I needed to fake being an alter for..what is it about my sisters and my relationship that makes me feel like I cant deal with my sister, what is it about my relationship with my sister that ....those would be the questions my therapist would be asking and many others too. she would also be asking me things like do I think so little of my therapist that I would put her in such a position as witness me faking....what else would I be faking/lying about during therapy, and to her face if I could do something like that..doing this to my therapist would hurt her in more ways and more painfully then if I had yelled I hate her and walked out the door, never to return.


You're an idiot. I was protecting my sister like I have all my life. You don't know a f***** thing about me or my life but you feel free to accuse me of faking it. Maybe you are faking it. Maybe you don't know a dam thing about the therapeutic approach to DID. You reference your own treatment. Maybe you should read more. Educate yourself on the present day approach to the treatment of DID. Maybe than you can offer a more productive and insightful response to the posts on this site. Most of what you say is negative and without basis. You reference nothing but your own experience. Maybe you need a new therapist. One that doesn't get hurt feelings while working working with patients who are struggling with their horrific past. Maybe you should just think before you respond. Or maybe you shouldn't respond at all.