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Originally Posted by Grumpyhedgehog
I don't know why put no matter how depressed or in need of support i keep putting on a fake happy face when people ask if i'm okay, my mother knows i'm depressed and tries to do the best she can to make sure i'm alright (not in a checking every hour way) whenever i seem down. But i keep lying, saying i'm fine and smiling. Sometimes i'll even start crying or just huddle up in a corner after she's gone and just let myself dwell deeper and deeper into my depression until i finally manage to drag myself out.
I know this is a bit heavy for a chat room but i don't know why i constantly do it and it just makes me wanna scream for someone to realise i'm lying.
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I call it my public mask. I am slowly working through my depression.
My mask goes with my agoraphobia, when I go out it drains me of a lot of energy. It is ok to discuss this because it is the depression forums.
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