Perhaps sociopathic tendancies is a better word choice. I care about select people, just the well being of my own blood mostly, and there are some people that I admire or that make my life better.

I lie when it's convienent to make conversations shorter, I lie to tell people what they want to hear, so I don't have to listen to them ramble on...I lie to make my life easier...Sometimes I lie to see if people are stupid enough to believe the ******** that comes out of my mouth. It's really sad that they do believe it, but when you say anything with enough confidence and it can become true. I lie about how I'm feeling so people leave me alone, No one knows me really not even family, and I keep it that way. I don't want them to know my thoughts. It's self preservation I guess. What am I if not a sociopath, am I just another f'd up member of society? I often have extreme thoughts of rage but I always control them...like earlier today I was driving, and a girl started slowly crossing the crosswalk and made eye contact just to piss me off. My immediate impulse was to get out of the car and slit her throat...I didn't do it, but only because of self preservation..

I guess what I am basically asking is if how I am is normal, but you Looney Toones seem to think so, which gives me some comfort. Also what can I do to manage my rage? No one has answered this question; Do I just need to find a guy to date that's like me? Or is that a bad program? All I know is that two negatives make a positive..