Another great pet are guinea pigs. I have two myself and they have helped me so much. Guinea pigs may not seem it, but they are pretty high maitinence. That means I always have something to do with them. If you decide to get guinea pigs, I can help you with a great website that has tons of information, and lots of caring people.
Have you ever thought about a diary? Maybe if you wrote a diary you could express your feelings in a way that wouldn't remind you of suicide.
One thing that has always brightened my day was the "Happy Moment Jar". This is when you write down a happy or funny moment that happened to you, scribble on a date, and drop it in a jar. The moments don't nesissarily have to be everyday, but it's nice when you can go back and look at them. Here is a picture of a "Good Moment Jar".
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