Steve,

I felt that way for a long time... It did get better though. I think one of the nastiest aspects of depression is that it doesn't allow you to see how things could ever get better... Depression feels like it's going to last your entire life.

One metaphor I found helpful was this: I was feeling very depressed one day. I had to take a flight for work, and the weather mirrored my mood - grey, drizzle, low clouds, dark. I was almost crying on the plane because I felt like I was never going to be better. And then... The plane broke through the clouds and it was suddenly sunny... The tops of the clouds were pure white and the sky was pure blue... And I realized that even when my mood was cloudy, the sun was still there above the clouds... And from then on I remembered that depression changes just like the weather. The rain never lasts forever.

I wrote a book about my experiences, with stories like that one and a bunch of other tips and tricks I learned from nearly a decade of major depression. It's called "Beat Your Brain at its Own Game" and you can borrow it from Amazon free if you have a Prime account. If you don't have a Prime account, let me know and I can send you a copy.

I hope that's helpful... Best of luck!

.Andrew.