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Originally Posted by dark_heart_x
Your pdoc hasn't been there for you recently. Do you have a GP you could call instead? Maybe get a referal or something, I don't know. You need even just one person to be there for you for real.
You need a support system right now. And, you're not getting it from the people you depend on most. I wish I could just send you a dozen angels right now to take care of you until you're through this darkest time.
Please stay safe, Speed. I know you think right now you have no purpose. But, I think you do. Our purpose isn't always clear, especially in the midst of tragedy. I always asked "Why was I put here with a mom who was going to leave me, when I needed her so much?" I still don't have that answer 20 years later. But, perhaps I won't know until after it's completed and I move to the afterworld. And, I think that's true for everyone.
It's not fair that you lost Jason. It's not. And, it's okay to be in pain. It's okay to grieve. This may just be a forum, but we're here for you.  Be safe. |
My GP is friends with my PDOC. I met him about 10yrs ago when he was one of the medical docs on the Psyc floor, he doesn't do this anymore. I just cancelled an appt. with him for the 3 rd time on Monday. He is harder to reach than my PDOC, he is in a very big practice. He would always refer any Psyc issues to my PDOC.
Yes all my normal supports have scattered away from me. I can't help but think this is a message. The last few days I felt my mothers presence, I can't ever remember feeling this. She seems to tell me it would not be a bad thing to join her and Jason. I get a peaceful feeling when she says this. The way I am living is so horrible and truthfully useless.
I am being honest.... NO POLICE PLEASE... PM me if you feel like you are worried, I will answer you.
Please don't make me regret being honest.
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JASON 8/17/1985 to 1/03/2013
I miss you sweetheart