I can't help it but to feel like your weren't there. Am I getting the wrong idea?!
I wonder if you felt confortable and actually playing a part in everything, and if so, What did you think/feel when you guys were in the store? Or did you think getting married was something you wanted to do? When?
I've been married for 8 years and even though, I'm happily married, I have a great husband/friend/lover/companion; you have to be really want to be with someone.
I hope you can find the real answers to your questions.
hang in there