Hi,
It does soud like you are going through alot right now. I agree with Dexter and ozzie on Therapy.
I do hope you will let us know how things are going, it was probubly a big relief to let all of that out. Thank you for sharing with us. I feel better sometimes when I journal, and release my fears or anger. Best wishes to you and your child.
Take Care,
Kris
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