I saw T#9 for a record fifth session today. I am SO on the fence about this one. I hope you can give me some feedback. I am trying to decide if I should keep going to him.

I’ve exhausted all my resources, so unless I just go to the yellow pages and start cold-calling, I have no one else to go to. Well, unless you consider the referrals this T could give me if I did decide to stop with him. But how much more time can I spend looking when I’m in terrible emotional pain and my life is s*** and I’m tired of living this way? So, so tired of the hurt of the betrayal and abandonment by xT constantly dogging me.

He has answered all of my questions. He said he doesn’t believe in just talk t, there has to be a goal and I have to do stuff outside the session, and he checks progress every 12 weeks. All clients complete a “mood survey” prior to every session, and a “session evaluation” at the end. He was the only T who told me I could report my T for what he did, and he expressed an appropriate level of shock over it.

He has not impressed me with his insights. He doesn’t seem particularly perceptive. He pointed out that he got a clock so that clients could know the time they have left – something we had talked about in the first session. I told him that I had been watching it the whole time and he said he hadn’t noticed. He likes to say “What are you thinking/feeling right now?” I don’t feel a liking for him – so the connection I so desire and think I need is not there. His sessions are only 45 minutes long. During the fourth session, I said something to the effect that he had not helped me yet and he said, Well, we haven’t started yet. See, I thought when I showed up the second time, that meant I was starting.

I have such a hard time coming up with any real positives, but if he’s competent, respectful and trustworthy, can I put aside my emotional reactions and let him help me anyway? IDK! What do you think?