I can totally relate, as I am going through something similar right now. I know it may feel like you are powerless, but you do have some options. Is there someone you can talk to about whatever is making you feel this way, like a friend or a counselor? It might also help for you to discuss this with your doctor - if these feelings are being caused by chemical imbalances, it's important to discuss treatment options. I can understand how you may feel like you are at the end of your rope, ArmyGirl, but there are always things you can do to figure out what is causing these feelings, and what can be done to improve your situation. I really feel for you, and if you ever need to talk, let me know :-)