Hey Nmz1. Welcome to PC. I'm glad you found us. Sounds like you're stuck. I think you may need to talk to a counselor or dr. You need some guidance on how to help yourself out of your rut. Obviously you are ready for a change because you posted here. So that is the good news!!! To begin with-- go outside and take a walk. Lack of sunshine can even contribute to feelings of depression. Next, pick up the phone and call a counseling service and get an appt. Next, see if there is a community college in your area and go look at their offerings. You can help yourself. You've already begun.
Good luck and please let us know how you go on.