Have you ever been told fake it till you make it? I've been faking happiness for 20 years still haven't made it but my faking has gotten to good to be noticed. Only person who can spot the fake is my partner and she can't always. I'm tired of pretending but I can't stop. Work expects me a certain way family too.... how can I show true feelings if they aren't "good". I might be put inpatient soon thoughts need to clear up. Sorry if this doesn't make sense.