despite apprehension about in-laws and being around a lot of people, today was a good day. was very nervous during church but they did a big prayer for all the moms and i had to go up with everyone in front of the whole church (which, really, pretty much every woman was up at the front, haha) and they prayed over us and i burst into tears during prayer and they of course noticed and a couple of the ladies came over and prayed over me about my mother and our broken relationship.

then i felt better and we all went to in-laws' house and had lunch and it was pretty fun. i didn't feel left out or like an outsider, and the kids all had fun together. it was nice.

then went to my parents' place and they were excited to see the kids (hadn't seen them in a month) and we had coffee and pretty much chilled. then came home.

so...good day. glad