I hope I am still welcome...

I seem to be cycling again... quickly. like within hours sometimes.

I was OK this morning and now I am fighting with sui thoughts.

I am still on meds and ECT, but I think meds are making me worse.

I have been reading about bipolar and nutrition and wonder if I could control it that way. Thing is, I can't seem to get my sh** together and get healthy.

Feeling hopeless.