I'm sorry you are having such a bad time. Sometimes minute by minute is the only way people get through.

Ever wonder why two people can go through the same thing and one person seems to glide through it while the other winds up a wreck? I don't know if that is built into their personality or something they have worked on.

When all my options seemed to be exhausted, I started looking for answers. I found that in some countries, people look at life differently than we do. Death is not an end, but rather a continuation of a person's soul in another place. I was raised a protestant, and though I don't practice it, do believe in one creator. That being said, i find some of the eastern mindsets interesting. I don't agree with some of it, and do with other parts.

In this country, we don't have to worry about war on our streets unless you count terrorism. The poorest of us are richer than some middle classes in other countries. It makes me wonder if one reason out depression rate is so high is that we have made it past the day to day fight to just find food and shelter. We are bombarded by ads on T.V. suggesting that we can't be happy unless we are rich, can play more than we have to work and deserve the best of everything. On the surface, that doesn't sound like it would be something that would effect us, but how many hours over a lifetime are we subjected to this sort of thinking?

The question of why some people are depressed is multifaceted, and there isn't one simple answer. Between enviornmental, genetic and chemical imbalances, finding the full answer seems impossible. I guess the way to approach it is to work on one thing at a time. No one deserves to be imprisoned in their own minds, even though it seems like it when you are in the midst of a deep depression. There just isn't one answer that fits everyone. Finding inner peace is a long, difficult process and probably lifelong. We just have to keep going as best we can and try to support each other.

Sam2