Hi,

I tried to post this when I joined, but it seems to have vanished? Or is still in moderation I guess. I don't know. Please someone tell me if it's not OK to post this here.

OK, so I think I may have a dissociative disorder of some sort. I occasionally lose time, find I have written/done/bought things which I don't remember doing. Never lost time for more than a few hours and it's not a regular occurrence.

I often feel like I am more than one person. I can visualise these other me's, some of them have names. I talk to them. But, I am always aware that they are simply another aspect of me, if that makes sense. More often I feel like I am outside myself, watching myself do/say things. At these times it feels like I have no ability to intervene. It rarely bothers me at the time, but does later when I am 'myself' again.

Not sure if I am explaining any of this very well. Anyway, I realise that some/all of this could be to do with my other issues. Such as body dysmorphia, PTSD and anxiety.

So, what I need advice on is how to bring this up with my doctor. She knows I dissociate sometimes but we have never talked about it in detail. Does anyone have any good tips for how to start this conversation? Particularly as when I have tried in the past I have become very anxious, dissociated and ended up telling her I am fine and just a bit anxious.

Any help is appreciated.

Thanks.

Milli
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