I have wrote on here a few times about what my manic episode (later turned psychotic episode) did to me. I have lost a lot of what I feel is intelligence and ability to speak well in social situations. I experienced psychosis in December and thought I was Joseph the father of Jesus and that somehow meant I was Santa Clause too. Hell it was fun while I was manic, but coming back to reality has caused me to be depressed. Not only that it all wasn't true, but on the fact that my recovery hasn't really happened. I came out of my psychotic state about 3 weeks after it started and haven't seen much improvement since. I would like to know from everyone who has experienced psychosis what their recovery was like and if they had any of the same problems. I've felt alone and sad that I feel I've lost so much... but I'm learning to live with what I have left. I want to be like I was before this all happened, but I'm afraid that part of me is dead. Thank you and inner peace be with all.