Things feel so unsettled for me right now...T today was okay, I guess.

Started shaking uncontrollably again a little while ago. Getting so tired of the renewed anxiety, sleeplessness and disturbing "flashbacks"

I'm not sure how to even wrap my head around certain things in life. Maybe I should put a trigger warning here before I say anything else... :trigger:
How can it ever make any sense when a child is terminally ill? I don't know what to do with any of it....the pain, confusion, anger, fear, sadness.....just too much. And he is now starting to understand that he isn't like the other kids, that something is wrong and he's a little bit scared, but he doesn't really know the truth.... Now I'm blubbering again...