As you may have gathered I am a 20 year old that has just been though his first round of psychs and counselors.

I am currently on 900mg Lithium and 100mg Seroquel.

Over the past three years I have gone through the following phases, usually one after another in periods of a few months:
Angry/Manipulative
Sad
Incredibly Happy/Manipulative
Paranoid/Angry
Incredibly Happy/Apathetic
Disassociated/Schitzoaffective
Depressed [Lithium 900mg]
Dissociated/Schitzoaffective
Angry/Violent/Schitzoaffective [100mg Seroquel]
Everything above at once currently

As if March 2013:
I am having thoughts and voices tell me that I am making everything up to get attention. That side of me is also laughing at what it thinks is the fact that I conned all of the psychs. The thing that concerns me is that I can't remember if I did or not, all I know is that my life is horribly out of control right now.

I only remember time periods in how I felt then and not anything to do with events. However when something I don't remember plays out again, say, my roomate sitting in a recliner playing games, I get incredible scared because I don't know if it is a dream or reality.

I don't know what the truth is about myself anymore, and could ramble on about this nonsense.

tl dr: One day this spring everything got way out of control, does that happen to other people? Do other people have the persistent idea that they are creating mental chaos for themselves? Feedback would be greatly appreciated and I will most likely be answer any questions if I can.