It is a horrible feeling to know you have given everything and not gotten anything in return but heartache. In my marriage I didn't need her support, I just didn't need her pulling against me. I was strong enough for the both of us. I'm skipping a lot but now I have found someone who is much younger than me. I'm not going to go into the age factor cause I don't wanna be blasted. It took me 30 years to realize that my wife was Borderline. Then 13 years into the marriage bipolar hit me. 54 now and I know what to look for. Absolutely start to forgive yourself and quit trying to think how you could have done anything different to make things work out now or in the future if that's what you doing. Please take some time to heal. It's different for everyone. Get yourself on good financial footing and be patient with yourself. I know I have given unsolicitated advice so forgive me if I've gone too far. BOL