Luckily, I am nearly 20 and I sought treatment for my ADHD and got a therapist when I was 18. I don't live with my parents year round because I go to college on the other side of the country. I didn't have horrendous grades during high school, but they were never good enough for my mom and they a complete war to come by. As a small child, I had serious behavior issues and social issues at school.
I know that my parents abused me. Instead of treating my ADHD, they attempted to beat me into submission and manipulate me through mental abuse. I grew up feeling completely unwanted by my family and consequently the world. I think my household is by nature cold and unfriendly, but I was the only one of my siblings who was really abused and I'm trying to make peace with that.
I do not have a good relationship with them now. My dad ignores me and my mom is a continual source of negativity in my life. I'm very fearful of them and coming back for summer vacation is an extremely stressful and scary time for me. I would never confront them about this or tell them about my feelings. I tried to do that once and she not only did she not listen, she still mocks me for it.
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