i was sexually abused for a long time. i was fine when i found out about it. but last year was hell. Suddenly all hit me. i didn't know what to do. the reality of what had happened to me took it's toll. it took me a little while to move on from it. i have moved on but sometimes, what happened to me still bothers me because it has shaped me in so many ways and i think to myself sometimes "what would i be like if it hadn't happened?" now really, i'm not to think about the "what if"'s in life but this just gets to me. it was by my cousins. female and male both. i don't see them that much honestly. but because of that, i'm scared of something.