moved on.

i was sexually abused for a long time. i was fine when i found out about it. but last year was hell. Suddenly all hit me. i didn't know what to do. the reality of what had happened to me took it's toll. it took me a little while to move on from it. i have moved on but sometimes, what happened to me still bothers me because it has shaped me in so many ways and i think to myself sometimes "what would i be like if it hadn't happened?" now really, i'm not to think about the "what if"'s in life but this just gets to me. it was by my cousins. female and male both. i don't see them that much honestly. but because of that, i'm scared of something.

Hi IronButterfly,

I read your page...you are fourteen years old. You have already "Moved On"? Wow!

KUDOS!!!!! You are a better person than I, that's for sure!!!

However, what you are writing here says that you are "scared of something"? You also have a status which is "Hurting"?
and you think of the "whatifs" but you do not think you ought think of them?

Is there any possibility that with this being said---you have not completely "Moved On"? Is there a possibility that, even though you sound very mature for your years; you may need more help with this--ie: seeing a therapist specializing in Trauma?

Just my thoughts...... I wish you all good things in the future!

Virago