Hi Cavi,
I have BPD and often find myself attached to other people in ways that are much too intense. I am struck by your great self-awareness re: this entire situation. With your ability to see that this is not healthy, I think you might just need to re-calibrate your attachments. I always try to remind myself that my first attachment needs to be to myself...and that at the end of the day, all we have is ourselves. That doesn't mean we are alone, just that all we have ultimately is ourselves. I know that when I take better care of ME, then I have more to give others.

My brutal honesty: I hope you can find a few ways to be really super good to yourself this weekend, ways that indulge all the great parts of being YOU.
Sending a big hug,
Hopeful Camel