Hi. You came to the right place. I'm glad you found us.

Should you go to another therapist? That depends on whether or not you liked and trusted the one you had. If you did, that would be the place to start. You won't have to start over from scratch and things should be easier for you.

My computer is having a cow and won't show me your profile, so I'll ask you. When you say you have ups and downs, do you mean you are bipolar? If so, you wouldn't be the first one that went off meds and stopped therapy. I had a friend in highschool that was diagnosed with bipolar and every now and then, she would go off her meds. She either felt better and thought she didn't need them anymore, or didn't feel much of anything while on them and wanted to feel again.

Don't let your friend get away. Explain to your friend what happened and why you did what you did. I lost a friend that way. He started pushing me away when we had been friends for years. He started doing that in Junior high with no reason given. We lived close to eachother, and he would tell me not to walk home with him or call him. It wasn't until years later that I learned he had some emotional problems (he was also bipoloar). Had he told me what was going on, I could have dealt with it. As it is, I gave up on him, thinking that he just wanted to hang with the "cool" crowd. If your friend was a good friend, then she will understand. Don't let it go too long though.

The best thing you can do for yourself is to get back into therapy and back on your meds. You don't need to feel bad all the time and deserve some peace in your life. I hope things work out for you. We can all be a support system for you if you would like. I know its not the same as face to face, but at least we will understand what you are going through.

Sam2