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Originally Posted by dubblemonkey
gen... you are very kind and even more magnificently direct!
..I don't want it all!
I already have it all!
I want less
...
there is more to add to this
I just cannot do it all at the same time
I already have too much to think about to care about I am pathetic about what it is to be in the image of modern HUMAN...
maybe you might see how I got here by people telling me I could do better than I did or at least keep doing as good as I apparently did?
when all I was doing was saying some dumbass stuff to feel somehow connected...
what's to say I am not healthy right now?
I'm offended
but I also understand...and that?
I dislike the most about myself...
pretty much everything offends me when I talk about myself but trying not to just does not seem to work for long
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Oh,Ye Gads, Dubble Monkey. I didn't mean to offend you. (I have a particularly great fear of doing that to people because in doing so, I suffer for literally weeks afterward.) I was trying to say that the alcohol gets in the way of the brilliance of your mind.
How can one have it all when dependent on alcohol?
You relate to people beautifully when you wish. I remember clearly when
Speed was having such a difficult time with the death of her son, and you
responded to her with "Speed, it was an accident, please understand that;
it was an accident." I don't think there was another post that helped bring
her back to a functioning level as much as that one did.
Now, you've got the brains, and you've got the love and the compassion.
In my view (and I'm NOT trying to offend, please) your view of love is
skewed because real love, while it's passionate, turns into friendship over
time. So if it's love that has you "cornered" and makes you want to come
out fighting, how about changing your view of what love is? Isn't it really
the desire to extend oneself for the benefit of another? And if it isn't
reciprocated, how can it be real love?
Shakespeare has said that in life real love for another is probably never
consummated because there is too much concern for the other person's
well-being. In one way, I believe that; for almost all of us, though, it
seems to me that we are all in the same ship trying to manage the
emotion of love and yet keep it enduring and at the same time feel
satisfied and content.
Contentment is a wonderful position to be in, as I see it. And it took me years to learn it.
If you won't be offended, I would say that might be what you're missing
in life. If you're offended, I didn't mean that the way you took it.
I hope I wiggled out of this one!
Take care.