You thought I attacked you?
No, I asked if you enjoyed because you don't seem to be focusing on pursuing what you want, which puzzled me. Also the fact that people judge any negativity of lack of enthusiasm and tend to reject you for it. You asked why you get rejected. From firsthand experience I know most people reject negativity and lack of enthusiasm, because both have been chronic with me.

Please let me know if that's what you meant, that I attacked you. Thanks.

By the way, there is no ONE thing "wrong" with you. Different people are rejecting you for different reasons. Also women in whatever category you can come up with are individuals. If you are rejected by both a supermodel and a fat geek, those are two data points, two individuals, not interchangeable units of a category. The way you describe it comes across very naively at best. In a sense there is nothing wrong with you. We are human, we all have faults, many of us are loved despite them. How does that happen? Maybe that is a more important question than your entrenched concept there is one particular thing wrong with you, which I assume you hope to change thereby solving your problem. I hope that's not what you think, because it sounds ridiculous the way I have described it here.