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Originally Posted by Mapleton
Hard truths are sometimes comforting. When a T tells you a hard truth, you know its a truth... is how I feel.
Everything else sounds pretty good, except for that concept of monthly therapy... but I so understand the $100.
I mentioned that beggars can't be choosers in my post. You'd be shocked how little I pay, and its still a consideration. I did 3 weeks between eval and T, and that seemed to be a life age. I can't comprehend regular months... some months, I imagine it would just be hellish.
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I just lost my reply to you. Here I go again.
Thanks, Mapleton. Yes, I know what you mean. I felt cared about when my T brought up the interrupting and not listening. It showed she's doing her job.
Another hard truth, not emailing her, is more difficult. Every time I think about it I get sad and teary-eyed. I remember when she answered every single email and said she always would. She changed a lot of rules when she saw they weren't helping me. I know I wanted us to be friends, or have a more reciprocal relationship, and it hurts not to, but I always knew that's not what therapy is about. The goal is NOT to become closer to her, though that was always MY goal. Again, my T is giving me a RX to help me, and I have to follow it to get better. I just wish it didn't mean that I have to "give her up".
It was a hard truth knowing she won't give me a big reduction in her fee next year. Right now I pay her $25/week but I won't have insurance in the future. I'd rather see her once/month than not at all. It won't be therapy, though. I tried it with my last T, and it was awful! I'll have to cross that bridge when I come to it.