I had a couple abusive alters. their purpose, job and reason for being was to protect me...by abusing me...I know that sounds like a strange conflicting idea but my therapist explained it to me...

children who are abused sometimes end up in situations where being abused is actually a protection...

example a child is abused and told not to tell, but then the abuser turns around and invites, makes situations where the child must tell one abuser what the other abuser is doing...

the rock and a hard place... one abuser can harm the child if the child talks and the other abuser can harm the child if the child doesnt talk... so whats a child to do? hard to choose between getting harmed for talking or get harmed for keeping mouth shut...what a conflict.. the child cant handle that so they dissociate/ the child mind creates an alter that will handle this conflict by abusing the child before the two abusers can do it ...

another example....

sometimes abusers will make a child abuse their self as punishment for things the abuser perceives is wrong. the child cant handle hurting their self so their child mind dissociates and creates an alter to do that for them....

there are many reasons why a person may have an alter that is abusive to their self, the other alters or the host...

the two examples are why my internal system had an abusive alter...to punish me for doing perceived wrongs or for doing the right thing and because I was in the situation of where my abusers were constantly making me break the rules so that they would have reason to punish me. it was my minds way of taking back some of that control from my abusers...if I was abusing myself they couldnt hurt me worse than what I could do to myself...

my abusers also trained me to punish myself for those times when they were not around to do it their self should I attempt to tell or do things they felt were wrong.