I suggest the psychiatrist, less because of what you think about the "normalcy" of mast. and more because you're using confusing, circular arguments and jumping between positions.

That sounds a lot like formal thought disorder (E.G. borderline, bipolar mania (p), schizophrenia, or maybe autism-- although I doubt it is autism, here)

I'll repeat... you need to speak to someone other than a few people on an internet forum, no matter how interesting and helpful we seem to be.

Good luck. As I said, go get that psychiatric consult.