Just know that you are not selfish. I use to feel the same way! It took me a couple years to get out of that stage. You need to take care of yourself and not worry about your family being proud of you. You will find out in the end that they are proud of you no matter what you do. I know it's not easy to be in college and to have all this extra stress on you. Just hang in there. Things will get better. *hugs*