I have been a friend. Why can't it be that when I meet someone, they just feel like oh you're fun to be around or stuff like that? For others, I see smiles, laughter, joy...everything positive imaginable.

After they've talked to me more than once, they just brush me aside and turn to others. Seriously, am I not meant to have friends? You don't know how many drops of tears I've shed worrying about the future without friends, without connections, without people liking me or marrying me..I couldn't even get the girls in elementary to like me. they all turned me away. There was absolutely no reciprocation. We just remained acquaintances.