well after 5 days the pain was so bad in the middle of night I drone to town turns out I have a 3 " break in my sternum .. I still have no memory of what happened the er doc thinks I had a tia I have no ins. so didn't get a scan on head.. but my heart showed no sign of a attack ... I flipin hurt
so a very heart felt thank you to GENATIC AND BHARANI1008 for advice... the dam head ache wont go away,.,.,.
1008 I don't have a house any more it got removed by the gods of wind 3 years ago I salvaged what I could but .. most people would be horrified by these living conditions.. but I know there are souls out there in much worse shape.........
I am so lost is it schizofrainia or what ? the visions are slowly coming back cept when I talk about them they stop.... I don't have a place to make a shrine....
so thx..... I lostlostlost I have no faith because I pray an prayed for not... I know it is wrong to lose faith but I cant help it..... I am so broken I don't know what to do.. I wish I had someone but I am alone so alone .. if there is gods what did I do in my past lifes to deserive this ? I tried to open a portal to another dimension and got scared when I saw what was coming through and stop it ... they say once its open you cant close it... so what do I do ? I want the visions I need them they need me .... I need help help help me I so lost in this do I need a rubber room ? oh please help me ... I remember my last life and all my loved ones were killed and I am stuck here cause now there gone again .. what do I do ? I am scared I don't want to be here and I don't want to leave.... is it purgatory? an after ten years I get to go home ????????????????????????????????????