Here's a sample of what I witnessed: I come home, he says my daughter moved the tv to a the couch. He had to move it back. There was no one in the house but him. He asked me one morning if I used his toothbrush. It was wet. He said "well, someone used it." There was no one in the house but me and him. A chair in our back yard was placed on top of a table. I asked, do you want that there; he looked at me surprised and said, i didn't put that there. Little cigarette butts had been taken out of the ashtray, and he pointed to them as if I had done it. A week later, I found little cigarette butts tucked into the couch. He has absolutely no idea that he's the one doing these things. At first I thought he was just lying…he would have an outburst and say something filthy in a restaurant; then accuse me of being crazy and making it up. It took me awhile to realize he actually had no recall. He has a habit of 'inventing' what probably happened, when he doesn't have all the pieces. He shared with me that he was beaten 'daily' with a stick..but seems ambivalent about it..no anger or anything. His rage episodes are explosive…he's strangled me; broke my finger, sprained my knee, broken furniture…over insignificant issues. It would be impossible for me to get him to a therapist. He's dead set against it. Believe me, I wish I had help.
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